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Thursday, 16 January 2020


Alami & santuni yg lokal dulu sebelum kecoh nak jadi global ikut piawaian ntah sapa.

(Small localism)
Experience & learn locality first before shouting for global based on donno what criteria.


Sebab itu dimuliakan dgn istilah 'ibu' dlm bahasa Melayu. Bukan 'capital' (modal utk buat untung, atau sesuatu yg besar). Ibukota belas pernah cuba diusul & digagahi. Tapi biasalah kan, ramai yg pandai2 suka kaitkan bandaraya dgn benda2 'raya'. Ibukota belas ya, lebih murni dari kota pintar terlebih fikir dan congak2.

That is why a city is referred to as a 'mother' in Malay language. It is not refered to as a 'capital'. City of belas or compassion that beloves & beloved has been at one time proposed. But whatodo, many clever2 people like to associate a city with more materially- celebrated 'things'. Compassionate city is better than a smart overthinking or overscheming city.

Sunday, 12 January 2020



Mula dgn 'perhati'. Apa dia perhati?
(Starts with 'looking'. What is looking?)

Perhati = peri hati = memeri hati = memerhati = menghaluskan hati
(Looking = matters of the heart = engaging with matters of the heart = gazing = refining the heart)

Hati secara istilah merujuk kpd 'heart' atau jantung dlm bahasa Inggeris.

Ya, takda perotak. Dalam Bahasa Melayu, aksi melihat dikaitkan dgn hati, bukan otak, bukan juga minda. Kenapa agaknya? Cuba kita beri 'perhatian'.

Hal ini mungkin krn penting melihat dgn hati, bukan mata & otak semata-mata. Melihat dgn hati yg celik & halus, akan nampak syurga dimana2. Juga disebut melihat dgn 'mata hati'. Melihat dgn hati begini juga dinamakan 'prihatin', yakni org yg melihat dgn sifat kasih & belas, rajin mendengar & memberi 'perhatian'. Ia membuatkan kita rasa 'suka hati', 'senang hati' dan 'sejuk hati'. Hati macam ini bercahaya. Hati bercahaya melihat segalanya sbg 'cahaya mata', 'permata', 'jantung hati' dan 'buah hati'. Sebab itu hati yg celik & halus dinama 'terang hati'. Hati yg terang bercahaya akan mencerahkan otak, minda & mata. Ia adalah ubat semulajadi, pemulih & vitamin alamiah yg menyihatkan badan fizikal.

Hati sebeginilah yg mencerahkan hidup & dunia kita selama ini.

Melihat dgn hati yg kasar, buta & gelap, akan nampak neraka dimana2. Ia dipanggil 'buta hati'. Hati begini tidak dapat melihat kebaikan langsung. Segalanya dilihat dgn 'busuk hati', 'iri hati', 'panas hati,' 'sakit hati', 'patah hati', 'ambil hati', 'makan hati', 'berat hati', 'kecil hati'. Lihat begini tidak menghalus & tidak mencerah. Ia menggelapkan otak, minda & mata. Ia adalah toksid, perosak dan racun yg membawa penyakit fizikal. Ramai orang yg mindanya sangat bijak & pandai, tapi hatinya kasar & buta.

Hati sebeginilah yg menggelapkan hidup & dunia kita.

Pilihlah dgn berhati-hati yg mana satu. Jagalah hati tu baik2. Semua memiliki otak & minda yg dah pandai2 belaka.

Sekian, pelajaran Bahasa Melayu tanpa 3 msurat jawi.

Friday, 10 January 2020

A reunion with a different perspective

Pameran Empat Persepsi’ is currently being held at the Creative Space in the National Art Gallery until Dec 31


IT WAS July 1984 when the four friends first met. They had just started their first semester at the School of Art and Design (now faculty) of Institut Teknologi Mara (now Universiti Teknologi Mara or UiTM).
Taufik Abdullah, Mohd Noor Mahmud, Prof Hasnul Jamal Saidon and Fauzin Mustaffa were impressionable young men who shared the same goal — to move the art world with their ideas and concepts via their artwork.
Taufik was the philosophical one, while Mohd Noor seemed more like a loose cannon with unpredictable ideas. Fauzin, on the other hand, seemed a little more structured in his works, and Hasnul, the more eloquent among them, would always have stories to accompany his creations.
Upon graduation, while their peers were still figuring out their directions, the four did something bold and different.
They became among the first in their batch to hold their first group art exhibition at the old National Art Gallery in Hotel Majestic, Kuala Lumpur (KL).
The exhibition was called “Pameran Empat Persepsi” and it was held in 1989.
As they move on, the four have continued to mature as they solidify their ideas and skills that could be seen in countless other exhibitions.
Somehow, 30 years later, they found each other again and decided to have a reunion by having another group exhibition of the same name at the current National Art Gallery in Titiwangsa, KL.
Former National Art Gallery DG Wairah Marzuki (left) launching the ‘Pameran Empat Persepsi’ exhibition earlier this month

Same School, Different Perceptions

“The exhibition is about our collaboration or a reunion after 30 years from our last group exhibition back then in 1989. We might come from the same school, yet we have our own perceptions,” Taufik said.
Apparently, each of them took on a different career path as they parted ways after the first exhibition.
Hasnul flew to the US for a young lecturer scheme, and he went on to become a lecturer.
“Hasnul is doing new media art and then I think he was almost the first one who ventured into digital art. In fact, he studied digital art back then in the US — in Detroit and New York,” Taufik said.
Back then, digital art was new in Malaysia and not many knew about it.
Mohd Noor also headed towards the teaching path after he pursued his studies in the UK and ended up as a teacher.
“Mohd Noor was doing the subject of jeans through paper mache. Now, he’s more into calligraphy and he’s been doing very well,” Taufik said.
On the other hand, Fauzin started off as a set designer at TV3 until he decided to go full time as an artist several years ago. He has been holding several group and solo exhibitions since.
“Back then, Fauzin’s subject was on nature and now, he is more into social politics or social critics about the Palestinians,” Taufik said.
Taufik himself started off as a sculptor, and his works moved him to other countries including Japan and Mexico. He later decided to focus his ideas as a painter.
“I became a sculptor for 26 years. I think that is enough. I want to go back to the fundamentals of painting,” Taufik said.
Currently, Taufik’s paintings lean towards a mix of surrealism and symbolism.
“I went to Japan and Mexico, and then I came back and stayed in Kelantan for many years. Only last year, I thought that I should continue my study here. So I came back to UiTM to continue my master’s degree,” Taufik, who is pursuing his masters at UiTM Jalan Othman in Petaling Jaya, said.
It took the 4 friends about 10 years to finally get their arts together for the exhibition

The Doers and the Thinkers

Most of us would have that one friend who’d give dating advice, although they’re still single.
That friend is usually the one who’d act like our own parents and the one friend who seems to be a walking and talking encyclopedia, and is always fun to be around.
For Taufik, that one friend is Hasnul.
“I think the most prolific and the most clever among us is Hasnul and of course, he was also the best student. That’s why he was chosen for this young lecturer scheme and sent to the US to further his studies,” Taufik said.
Taufik would visit Hasnul when he was doing his masters in New York.
“I like to be with him and listen to his guitar. He plays the guitar and writes music too,” he said.
Of the four, Taufik said Mohd Noor and Fauzin could be the most prolific and very versatile with their works.
“They’re really focused on producing art compared to me and Hasnul because we are more into ideas and concepts,” Taufik added. He said coming home is important to him, so that he could really get back to the basics and make art instead of just being carried away with ideas.
“When you start to think about something and then try to finalise the image, then you have a problem… because art is simply about just doing it. The meaning would come later.”
While he is more result-oriented, Taufik said he still believes that process is as important, something he began to realise since he began pursuing his masters.
“Currently, I’m studying studio practice as a research, so that’s the process. Now, the process is much more important so I have to work all this and change my beliefs, my mind and objective, and try to do more process and take it as research,” he said.

An Exhibition that Took a Decade to Plan

Fauzin, who spoke to The Malaysian Reserve in a separate meeting, said everybody has changed. All four of them have their own families and are very much engaged with their own careers.
“So, when we get together, we can see the difference. Yet, we can still get back to our old selves and do the show. Even though we are different individuals, we are together when it comes to the philosophies of life,” he said.
It took the four friends about 10 years to finally get their arts together for the exhibition as each of them has been busy with their families and careers.
“I jokingly told Taufik and the rest that the next time we get together for another group exhibition, someone might not be around anymore… And it could just be a tribute and really a reunion,” Fauzin laughed.
As they move on, the 4 have continued to mature as they solidify their ideas and skills that could be seen in countless other exhibitions

Of Youth and Maturity

Fauzin missed the physical energy during his younger days. He said the reunion with his friends has somehow given him the energy back.
“I think it’s a process here. When you are younger, you want to try everything, and then from time to time, and over time, you’d grow to become very selective. Your thinking has become more mature,” he said.
Luckily for Fauzin, his transition from being a set designer to a fulltime artist has been smooth sailing.
“So, I got into this TV station working as a set designer, and at the same time, I still had the ambition to be a full-time artist and work for myself. I managed to do that even after 18 years working with TV3,” Fauzin explained.
From Life to Sacrifice
In the “Pameran Empat Persepsi” exhibition, you will see the works of the artists that have been displayed from the first exhibition back in 1989 till today.
Right after Fauzin graduated from college, the theme for his artworks have been very much on nature.
“Nature is just a symbol for life. From time to time, we change accordingly to the development and then the surroundings,” he said.
Fauzin is still using the subject of nature to explain about life and sacrifice, where he depicts it in his artwork “Bunga Putih di Pusara”.
He portrays death in an interesting way, using white flowers, instead of the black-cloaked, scythe-wielding Grim Reaper we would have seen in horror films.
“It’s just a part of a process. Of course it’s sad when we lost something or somebody. But we can look back and then it’ll become beautiful memories when you try to recall it,” Fauzin said.
Meanwhile, Fauzin’s social politics artworks about the Palestinian territories occupation is about sacrifice and people fighting for their lives.
He also made the works more universal because he believed that the fight is for everyone, not just limited to Muslims.
“It’s not just for me personally. Painting is not just about me expressing my feelings, myself. It is about others. I try to show people that it is about sacrifice — fighting for peace. Not only for Muslims. It is actually very universal,” he said.
The painting “Al-Aqsa” depicts the mosque of the same name and is painted in monotonous colours. It also features white pigeons.
“I used the white pigeon as the bird represents freedom and peace. Al-Aqsa mosque was our first kiblat.
When people talk about Palestine, they’ll always associate it with the Dome of The Rock — the golden one.
“Al-Aqsa is actually the other one, the Black Dome,” Fauzin said. Currently, he is working on a Tugu Negara (National Monument) series which will also be black and white.
“The philosophy of Tugu Negara is about fighting and sacrifice and I’m working on that now,” he said.
“Pameran Empat Persepsi” is currently being held at the Creative Space in the National Art Gallery until Dec 31. The gallery is open from 10am to 6pm daily, while admission is free of charge.


Tajuk : H3RO
Penerbit :
Tahun : 2014-2019


Sebenarnya ketika H3RO mula dipersembahkan beberapa tahun lepas, saya mula tertanya-tanya, apa bendalah yang dibuat insan ini. Pada waktu itu, beliau selalu bercakap tentang kuantum. Kuantum itu, kuantum ini. Yang saya tahu hanyalah Quantum of Solace, filem James Bond yang saya tak berapa gemar walaupun ada Olga Kurylenko sebagai bintangnya.

Tapi saya tetap baca juga catatan di blog beliau tentang kuantum walaupun saya tidak faham sepenuhnya. Saya kagum, kagum dengan pemahaman beliau dan cara beliau mengaplikasikan kuantum itu ke dalam persembahan dan kehidupan.

Beliau insan yang saya maksudkan ialah Kebun Jiwa Halus atau nama sebenar beliau Hasnul Jamal Saidon. Merupakan Profesor Madya di Pusat Pengajian Seni Universiti Sains Malaysia, seorang artis multidisiplin yang berkarya melalui pelbagai medium; lukisan, catan, instalasi, elektronik art, muzik, teater, dan banyak lagi.

H3RO saya kategorikan sebagai performance art. . Apa beza performance art dengan performing art? Itu satu soalan teori yang saya sendiri susah nak jawab di sini. Saya tiada satu jawapan yang jitu. Mungkin ada pakar teori yang boleh bantu. Tapi jika anda berada di depan saya, mungkin saya boleh lukiskan rajah untuk lebih mudah pemahaman (mengikut pemahaman saya yang dangkal).

Tapi jika kita merujuk kepada Mark Westbrook, menurut beliau, "Performing Artists usually belong to the acting, dancing and music world, the world of the conservatoires and traditional performance spaces. Performance Art has its roots in the world of the art school, an extension of the fine arts, and often takes place in galleries, found spaces, and in site specific locations. A performing arts product could be a theatre production, a musical recital, a ballet. A performance art product could be chatting with the artist (as herself) in a part of an art gallery made to look like her front room."

H3RO mempunyai sejarah yang panjang. Ia bermula seawal 2014 dan hidup dalam beberapa siri. Saya yakin ia akan hidup lagi beberapa dekad lamanya. Tahun ini masuk tahun ke-5 H3RO menjelajah ke pelusuk Malaysia.

Ia hidup dalam bentuk persembahan lagu, tayangan filem pendek, lukisan, bengkel, ceramah interaktif dan dokumentasinya dimuatnaik ke internet. HJS menggunakan premis pengalaman belas seorang bapa kepada anak  lalu dikongsikan kepada peserta H3RO agar memahami apa itu maksud belas.

'Belas tu bukan kasih sayang atau cinta semata-mata, ia lebih dari tu. Cinta dan sayang ni lain. Kau boleh sayang dan cinta pada orang yang kau nak sayang dan cinta. Tapi bolehkah kau belas kepada musuh kau? Sebab cinta dan sayang itu dah terkandung dalam belas dan belas ni luas rangkumannya. Orang yang kau tak suka pun kau boleh belas' kata beliau kepada saya.

Kalau nak guna bahasa mudahnya, belas ini hampir bererti memberikan kemaafan. Hampir saja ya, bukan sama. Contohnya kita belas kepada binatang yang merosakkan tanaman kita, ia tidak sama dengan memaafkan binatang berkenaan. Ahhh sukar yang bercakap tentang perkara ini kerana maksudnya sangat mendalam walaupun sebenarnya ianya sangat mudah.

Jadi melalui H3RO, HJS menggarap rasa belas ini ke dalam hati para peserta yang menyertainya, bermula dengan kisah hidup beliau dengan Allahyarham Saidon Pandak Noh, ayahanda beliau. H3RO ini menjadi satu bentuk terapi buat beliau, dan beliau berusaha agar ia juga menjadi satu bentuk terapi kepada manusia lain. Menurut beliau, tidak mudah mencapai makam belas ini. Adakalanya ia memang wujud dalam diri dan adakalanya perlu dicari.

Beliau memberi contoh bagaimana Abdul-Munim Sombat Jitmoud 'membelasi' Trey Alexander Relford yang membunuh anaknya Salahuddin Jitmoud ketika menghantar pizza. Mudahkah? Hanya anda boleh jawab persoalan itu jika anda berada di posisi si bapa.

Banyak yang nak ditulis ni. Nanti jadi esei pula. Jadi saya berhenti di sini dengan memetik kata-kata Kebun Jiwa Halus a.k.a. Hasnul Jamal Saidon,

"I then realised that the secret of experiencing life is about connecting and correcting the connection that has been disconnected. Disconnection is the opposite of compassion, which would be apathy."

*Pameran H3RO sedang berlangsung di Muzium & Galeri Tuanku Fauziah (MGTF) USM sempena Pameran Oasis 2019 sehingga 28 Januari 2020.


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Tuesday, 7 January 2020


Dear Prof Hasnul, you are simply... beyond!🌟 First, having you as my FYP supervisor was a blessing in disguise. When all things (my major, minor, works, commitments) seemed like falling apart, you believed in me. I must say thank you for the time and patience you have taken to groom me towards RINTIS 2019, graduation and the better version of myself. 👩🏼‍🎓
With your immense support and guidance, "Mirror Mirror • Embrace Love" has been sucessfully executed to instil awareness of the impact of social media towards beauty standards and mental health among women and also to embrace love and kindness. The project was also intended for me to find my inner self and believe in it, once again! 😇
Frankly, you did more than what is required as a teacher. You taught me good values, told me remember to love my parents (your words can touch people’s heart😭), to see the world positively and differently, to say to my heart and believe that great things are going to happen......
You brought out the best in me.
I will never forget your simple yet profound words of wisdom.
Last but not least, here's a mini shout-out on Prof's message when Lisa, Jason and I were somewhat feeling lost during our fyp journey, 👨🏽: "say & believe in your heart, many2 times until it becomes your echo to the Universe. The Universe will instantly conspire to make it happen."
👩🏻👱🏻‍♀️👱🏼‍♂️:"I AM enjoying the abundance flow of fantastic & exciting discoveries on ........................... (topic)."
Take care, prof. We are going to miss your jokes and laughter. 😂 May our paths cross in the future.
Sincerely, your student Adelyn. ☺️
©2019 Adelyn Yeap Yi Jing, Hasnul J Saison & Universiti Sains Malaysia @ Universiti Sains Malaysia